I recently spoke up about motherhood and dealing with my mother's death over here, if you care to listen. I don't mind if you don't since I haven't completely finished listening to it myself - because I'm terrified and nervous that I don't make any sense or that it's just useless drivel. But, you know after that "interview" I felt this sort of release, a relief of sorts. It allowed me to come to terms with my mom's death and what was most surprising was the realization of how much of an easy going mom I came to be..which is NOT how I ever imagined myself becoming or ever being.

If you haven't already visited this parenting site - The Longest Shortest Time - you should. I know there are a lot of parenting blogs out there but this one is articulate, refreshing and just real..not that those other blogs aren't real but anyway, have a gander over there and you'll see what I mean..and as an example, don't start with mine first! Start at the beginning..or not, or whatever. just go over there and check out the stories (podcasts).

I'm always worried (and terrified) that since Jax spends most of his days with his dad, that he will start to favor his dad over me. but each time i see him at the end of my work day, he always seems super excited to see me when we say hello after being apart for the day. it's something i  look forward to after a rough day at the office. 

he's getting so big now and becoming such a little boy right before our eyes :( . we think he will start crawling soon. hes been lunging at things, getting up on his knees (or trying to and teetering) and getting boo boos on his head. he never seems to sit still these days, especially when you try and put on his diaper or dress him. pretty soon we will have to baby proof our cluttery house (uh-oh). no teeth yet (and thats ok by me!). he's been eating more servings of solid food (this week its broccoli) and has had plain pasta, soba noodles, yogurt,  and his daddy's tortilla de patatas.