so yesterday morning at around 4:58 am, I awoke to a familiar painful feeling - clogged milk ducts. this can't be, not again! yep sure enough it was. I started to panic. well because im lazy. i didnt want to run downstairs and wash out and put together the pump stuff and pump. i wanted to go back to sleep. you think i would have already learned my lesson from past experiences and not waited or hesitated, but i did. it was 5 am! everyone was asleep - including me! and that is a hard feat in and of itself. So, it was pretty obvious what i had to do. wake a sleeping baby! crazy, i know. jax was not waking up. here i am trying to force feed the kid, poking at him with my boob and nothing. absolutely nothing. he would stir and try to move away from me. pretty much trying to tell me - leave me alone, im sleeping. but sometimes he would clamp on (still half asleep, eyes closed) only to fall back to sleep sleep within seconds thus giving me no relief whatsoever. what was i to do? it just felt like it was getting worse and more painful as 8 am grew near. I hate to have to use being a mother as an excuse for not being able to show up to work. So instead of not going in at all, I decided to go into work late. But it was clear to me at about 9:48 am, that it was not getting any better. And since I hadnt been getting any rest, I decided to throw in the towel and take a sick day.

anyway, now im back at work, a little bit better but its still not completely gone. one thing is for sure - ive mastered the art of squirting, i mean, manual expression (which means i lose the milk though!) which helps to relieve the pressure/pain and move the clog along (at least for me). which actually works much better than the pump.

this weekend will be spent marathon nursing and resting. we were gonna go and spend super bowl sunday at penny's but its probably best that i rest and nurse instead. I dont want to have this when we go off to denver. the last time i had a bout with a clog, it took a full seven days to be completely gone! ouch.

will post some videos and pics of lil big jax soon.

as you can see, i am trying to reconfigure the site, and as it stands right now - i dont like the looks of it, but i have no time to snazz it up. ok, im lazy, sorry. anyways, supposedly there will be a post up soon by the other author on this site. you may remember him? he is the other culprit of jax's existence and he had a couple of posts here long long ago bk (before kid) when i was just prego.

anyway, i wanted to share my pumping arsenal and schedule. that is, when i remember to pump. wait, how do i not remember right? believe me, my boobs give me hell when i procrastinate too long, but at work, i even forget to eat sometimes! tsk tsk, i know. and its not cause i get caught up on such important matters, but again its partly cause im lazy. eh, im even too lazy to explain it right now..anywayszzz..

My arsenal:
1. Medela Freestyle pump. Its a pump that my work kindly bought me. I had a different pump that worked just as well from my cousin, a pump in style, that already comes in a bag. but this freestyle one is compact and is more travel friendly.
2. at least 2 bottles and a dozen or so storage bags
3. magazines - this is pretty essential since, im pumping for at least 15 minutes but then i get anxious since hello - im still doing it in the private bathroom. thats sounds dirty in so many levels.

damn it, well, i would have more to post but work is actually demanding me to, well, work.

more to come..and hopefully, cw will put up a proper post when he has time today.

oh but if you are interested in some milk production others are doing, i stumbled on this site. although, his kid is now 6 years old, but they seemed pretty thorough on how they set up their milk supply and the trials and error of said production. check it out.